Phew, after 1 and a half years using Yahoo! blog, now i'm getting bored with it,better switch to something new,isn't it? first of all, I'm kinda lazy person, especially in typing { both english and vietnamese}the result now is I'm getting worse and worse in both languages. So , a fresh start for a brand new year ( even though it's maybe late , the day is 9th, means first week of 2009 had pased )but better late then never. Hope this blogger will stick with me through the next year.:D
have you ever wondered or worried about the time you finished the degree , you come out to the real world , where there are people kill people, where you have to fight in your own to buy rice, meat or milk! Ya, you can say I'm not brave, I haven't ready for that battle. It's tough and very difffult to survive . Im scare , feeling lost sometimes, and depress deep inside. Oh it's suck when i said something like that in the first post. But still i have one more year to prepare myself in the 2009 and i'll study study for that battle in the 2010. Man, reach that year, I'm only 20+, still young, i have no experience, no money , no saving, no house, no car, how can i expect to have a girl friend??? It's weird to think ,any PH when lots of couple hanging out, watch movie or dining together, it's me , me me me and only , do u see that? i go to school alone, i eat alone, i go to library alone, i go church a lone, i watch movie alone, my best best gf now can say is my MP3, which i bought by my own salary, thought of sad? watching me alone, some people wonder " Am I gay?" oh jezz, should I punch them? of give them a F... upside down, please leave me alone, you are behavioring too rude with people around , and I'm here don't give a shit about that, watch your mouth about that. And it's not funny when talking about that , cause I'm not not not G-A-Y.
jezz, i don't wanna explain that stuffs by saying, and I should'nt care for all that bull-shit people.
I have left than 14 days to exam , quite hard for Business Law and PR , but i hope i can pass through all that. Oh , Im keep saying I'll study study everyday, but in the end, i go bed with all the time playing on my lap, and watch films, of course. Im such a liar to myself , not keeping the promise. I know my worst characteristic is not concentrating ,low - memory in focusing in one exact option . So should change myself , rite?
ok ,that's enough for today? why do I write a post in the middle of the day??? update again before i got to bed then, see ya :D
hey, it's me , again, now it's 10.30 pm, just finished another day of this week. Yay, one day but i gone through quiet a number of feelings. after noon, i got to library, studied then and got really excited when studying. At 4pm, im coming back and grabed a Mc Chicken on the way home, feelings damn hungry and prevent me from gastric , too. then it's time for dinner preparation, i did it very well every day, the result i can see it right way, my niece enjoy the dinner , my sister and brother-in-law all finished all the meals, how can i be any happier?? Ya, again, i broke my promise, instead of coming to desk for studying from 9-12 , i went to my niece's room to watch cartoon with her , the Rattouile show, and it' was really interesting and funny though. I love to see people cooking and enjoy their dish, isn't it lovely?? untill 9.40 , means i haven't finished the show, we switched to Channel 5 for News. I wonder are all the Malaysians-Malay and Indonesian-Muslim are stupid after all, for deciding on banning all American items?? maybe i'm not quite knowledgeable of History, the Israel and Palestine's battle, how they hate each other and take action by killing their people. They are such a cruel people is this lovely life, using violent to win the situation , it never be a good choice for anything . I feel really poor for the people who said themself are Israelees and Palestianes, they maybe have be bless when coming back to their God.. Amen. Ya, after that heart-broken news, here I am, peacefully at my desk with my laptop, chatting some things with my brother back home, offering him some gifts when i get back , underwear ,maybe, haha, who knows!! and SMS someone ,which i really really don't know how to say or to thing or to mention about that. Ya, we should have a meeting tml, and that person supposed to give me a lecture about God, which is that this person had promised last week for things not done yet. And now, i'm still waiting here, feelings as hell and got no reply, what should i do now? i already listed in my list " the thing i hate the most" which is the answer is " waiting for someone or something". I really really really can't stand that kinda situation and that fucking feeling giving to me. I hateeeeee thatt, and I'm going crazy for it now now now.
and one bad new is ,I cannot work on this Sunday, which i was expected will be working , but due to my manager changed her phone number and she didnt care to look at the schedule's request, she forgot my name and my request for this week, was it sad? A bit, but instead of going to work, i rather spends that valuable time for studying myself at library, which means give me something better in the future,a good job , i hope so :D
and finally i got some advice from my sister, which helps me in this bad time , all about the worried things of mine for my future in the next year, she told me " shouldn't be worry too much, u will deserve what the best for you , and GOD will always love you, take care of you and worry for you all the times" . Isn't that sweet, helping calm me down for the damn thing happens in my mind. yaay, i still believe in you Jesus, love you till dead and will let you be the survivor or my head , my heart and my life.
with love
Alex :X:X
have you ever wondered or worried about the time you finished the degree , you come out to the real world , where there are people kill people, where you have to fight in your own to buy rice, meat or milk! Ya, you can say I'm not brave, I haven't ready for that battle. It's tough and very difffult to survive . Im scare , feeling lost sometimes, and depress deep inside. Oh it's suck when i said something like that in the first post. But still i have one more year to prepare myself in the 2009 and i'll study study for that battle in the 2010. Man, reach that year, I'm only 20+, still young, i have no experience, no money , no saving, no house, no car, how can i expect to have a girl friend??? It's weird to think ,any PH when lots of couple hanging out, watch movie or dining together, it's me , me me me and only , do u see that? i go to school alone, i eat alone, i go to library alone, i go church a lone, i watch movie alone, my best best gf now can say is my MP3, which i bought by my own salary, thought of sad? watching me alone, some people wonder " Am I gay?" oh jezz, should I punch them? of give them a F... upside down, please leave me alone, you are behavioring too rude with people around , and I'm here don't give a shit about that, watch your mouth about that. And it's not funny when talking about that , cause I'm not not not G-A-Y.
jezz, i don't wanna explain that stuffs by saying, and I should'nt care for all that bull-shit people.
I have left than 14 days to exam , quite hard for Business Law and PR , but i hope i can pass through all that. Oh , Im keep saying I'll study study everyday, but in the end, i go bed with all the time playing on my lap, and watch films, of course. Im such a liar to myself , not keeping the promise. I know my worst characteristic is not concentrating ,low - memory in focusing in one exact option . So should change myself , rite?
ok ,that's enough for today? why do I write a post in the middle of the day??? update again before i got to bed then, see ya :D
hey, it's me , again, now it's 10.30 pm, just finished another day of this week. Yay, one day but i gone through quiet a number of feelings. after noon, i got to library, studied then and got really excited when studying. At 4pm, im coming back and grabed a Mc Chicken on the way home, feelings damn hungry and prevent me from gastric , too. then it's time for dinner preparation, i did it very well every day, the result i can see it right way, my niece enjoy the dinner , my sister and brother-in-law all finished all the meals, how can i be any happier?? Ya, again, i broke my promise, instead of coming to desk for studying from 9-12 , i went to my niece's room to watch cartoon with her , the Rattouile show, and it' was really interesting and funny though. I love to see people cooking and enjoy their dish, isn't it lovely?? untill 9.40 , means i haven't finished the show, we switched to Channel 5 for News. I wonder are all the Malaysians-Malay and Indonesian-Muslim are stupid after all, for deciding on banning all American items?? maybe i'm not quite knowledgeable of History, the Israel and Palestine's battle, how they hate each other and take action by killing their people. They are such a cruel people is this lovely life, using violent to win the situation , it never be a good choice for anything . I feel really poor for the people who said themself are Israelees and Palestianes, they maybe have be bless when coming back to their God.. Amen. Ya, after that heart-broken news, here I am, peacefully at my desk with my laptop, chatting some things with my brother back home, offering him some gifts when i get back , underwear ,maybe, haha, who knows!! and SMS someone ,which i really really don't know how to say or to thing or to mention about that. Ya, we should have a meeting tml, and that person supposed to give me a lecture about God, which is that this person had promised last week for things not done yet. And now, i'm still waiting here, feelings as hell and got no reply, what should i do now? i already listed in my list " the thing i hate the most" which is the answer is " waiting for someone or something". I really really really can't stand that kinda situation and that fucking feeling giving to me. I hateeeeee thatt, and I'm going crazy for it now now now.
and one bad new is ,I cannot work on this Sunday, which i was expected will be working , but due to my manager changed her phone number and she didnt care to look at the schedule's request, she forgot my name and my request for this week, was it sad? A bit, but instead of going to work, i rather spends that valuable time for studying myself at library, which means give me something better in the future,a good job , i hope so :D
and finally i got some advice from my sister, which helps me in this bad time , all about the worried things of mine for my future in the next year, she told me " shouldn't be worry too much, u will deserve what the best for you , and GOD will always love you, take care of you and worry for you all the times" . Isn't that sweet, helping calm me down for the damn thing happens in my mind. yaay, i still believe in you Jesus, love you till dead and will let you be the survivor or my head , my heart and my life.
with love
Alex :X:X
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